One of the hardest things about transitioning into summer for me is avoiding guilt. We’re so busy during the school year that it’s hard for me to adjust to taking a break. The rest of life doesn’t take a break, I think. Our brains don’t take a break, I reason. So why should we take a break from schooling?
I was nursing a little guilt this morning about not being “productive,” so I recounted the things we’ve accomplished today,
- Quiet Time with God: journalling, praying, reading the Word
- Making great pictures with Ed Emberly’s fingerprint art book
- Teaching Brooke three cursive letters, resulting in the word “cab”
- Having a heart to heart with Brad about how proud I am of him
- Helping hubby to submit his resume for a few positions
- Reading from Mother Teresa’s No Greater Love
and felt much better. For a few minutes. A rest on the couch (with a heating pad, well-deserved) ushered the guilt right back in. Yet in that silence, as I wrestled with the desire to find my identity in my performance, the Holy Spirit reminded me of the truth I’ve learned: “It’s not about what I do, but who I am. What I do always fades–quickly. Who I am is eternal. I am beloved daughter of the King of the world, no matter if I am busy or still. I am joint heir with Jesus Christ to the riches of His glory, no matter if I am doing something impressive or resting.”
I am comforted by God’s confirming voice in this Casting Crowns song:
“…Not because of who I am, but because of what You’ve done;
Not because of what I’ve done, but because of who You are…”
In sharing these pictures, free from the pressure of gaining acceptance or admiration based on what I’ve accomplished, I can share my joys with you. I can see what we accomplish is a blessing from the Lord, an extra dose of Life which we can lift up to Him. I hope you are able to enjoy them and feel free from the pressure to imitate our activity. Instead, seek our Refuge and find your own peace.